Trying to get back in the swing of blogging. I've kinda missed being able to post my thoughts, musings and life events in the form of a diary, that I can refer back to and remember how I was feeling or dealing with the ups and downs of everyday life.
They say that time changes all things and over the years, since my last entry, time has changed many things for me.
I have gotten older and in some ways wiser, though my physical abilities have become lessened and the inevitable toil of aging and made it's imprint on my body. I am not as physically strong as I once was, nor am I as emotionally weak as I once was. Though in some areas I have become less social and more an introvert. Feeling less comfortable with large crowds and less tolerant of noise and chaos.
I find that I seek solitude and yet at the same time feel the need to just have a conversation that is intelligent and interesting. I am a creature of habit and contradictions, hoping to sort out my feelings and be able to embrace my identity, my dreams, my goals.... But, I find that actually putting forth the effort to make my goals become realities is just too difficult a task. Starting projects and abandoning them before completion. I need to get my self complete again. Maybe writing down my thoughts will give some insight as I return to them and read them. Maybe facing my shortcomings will help me to move beyond them and be the person that I wish to become. It is a start.